Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Betul lah
Teknologi mendekatkan yang jauh 
Menjauhkan yang dekat
Sedih
Pissed

Encik suami, nanti jangan buat niena camtu
Kalau tak niena akan sedih sangat
Niena try untuk tak buat camtu 

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Angry Bird

Do I look like an angry bird here?
Oh maybe it's because of my brow.
Poor me.
Because of my frown.
I frown when I show my disapproval, sometimes innocence, often confusion and curiosity.
But people might have just interpreted it for one.
Anger. Or dissatisfaction.

Monday, July 18, 2016

Cerita

Ingat bila bercerita kurang sesak di dada
Terkadang menambah semak
Jika yang dicerita itu salah orangnya
Memanglah tak enak
Tapi kalau yang dicerita itu kena orangnya
Harus jiwa juga terasa lemak

Kesimpulannya, jangan ikut hati
Akal diberi untuk buat pertimbangan
Hati pula diberi untuk menilai dan mentafsir sesuatu yang akal buta dan pekak
Guna keduanya
Baru benar manusia

Practicum post #2 [Suffocating]

So far everything has been good. 
Awesome is not yet achieved. Haha. 
It's not exciting yet not too boring.
Maybe because I havent entered classes to teach yet.
So most of the times, I've been surrounded by teachers. Annoying sometimes. 
I am still learning to adapt. They way they befriend with each other is not the way I befriend with people. 

Haih, selalu cerita students lari balik mrsm sebab homesick. Jangan nanti pecah record teacher pulak lari dari mrsm sebab homesick. Engko jangan nienaaa. Kau chill je. Biasalah tu mula2. Kau ingat hidup kau ni sokmoo bahagia macam lawak kampus? Haha memang tak lah. Kadang cerita kau ni kalah drama indon emosi diaa. 

Ok lah teacher nak tido. Doakan miss niena kuat, tabah dan sentiasa ikhlas mendidik anak bangsa. 

Friday, July 15, 2016

Not a practicum post

I feel plain. 

Sometimes like a rice ball stucks in my throat. 
Can't swallow
Can't even throw it up
Semoga kalian happy
Semoga Allah berikan yang terbaik untuk aku

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Practicum post #1 [Intro]

So today is my first day being a practicum teacher in MRSM Kubang Pasu, shortened, MRSM KuPa. So far Alhamdulillah everything went well. Nothing much, just getting all the housekeeping stuffs done. Basically we were just getting ourselves familiar with the school, meeting the principal (gulp.), other admins, and other teachers. My first impression is that everyone here is so warm and welcoming. From our mentors, the staffs, and the students as well. I also got a chance to eat at the cafĂ© as a teacher for the first time. The food’s not too bad. Nice I would say. Me and Miza also got a chance to enter one of the teachers’ classes. Well, actually she was our senior at Auckland. Haha I know. What a small world. Not only that, there are like 5 teachers there from New Zealand, including science teachers.


Saturday, July 9, 2016

Ramble Raya

Alhamdulillah our open house just ended.
Didn't expect it turned out to be a massive one.
Super tired I swear. 
I showered 4 times today because I was just extremely sweaty and sticky eww I know due to continuous cooking, going here and there around the house to serve the guests. 
But all in all, of course I'm a happy girl. In fact all of us enjoyed our open house so much. 
Alhamdulillah thank you Allah for the rezeki. 

But I just have something to ramble. 
About soksek. I dont't know what's my feeling towards soksek. Sometimes im proud to be part of my batch but slowly the feeling's wiped off. Due to the disconnection that me myself created maybe? If I were to attend a reunion, I'll be super awkward. Semua orang ade geng masing2, meet up every year, know each others' personal stuffs, laughed together for the same inside jokes and me? Imagining myself to be with them is already making me feel inferior. In the end, I'd rather be like this. Tapi kengkadang jeles. Jeles for their bond and wonder why can't I be that close as them. But when I think back, maybe because I was just there for two years and they've known each other longer than that. Two years babe. What do u expect to give an impact on people's lives? Haha.

Sebab tu la busuk busuk budak tesl pun, aku boleh terima and sayang setiap sorang differently. Because we've been together for 6 years already. 

So maybe, in my case, the hypothesis of 'the longer u know the person, the more you'll be regarded as important in their life' is accepted. But, just, in this case.

Nite. 

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Book Review: The Last Lecture

Book Title : The Last Lecture
Author : Randy Pausch
Genre : Non-fiction - memoir
Rating : 7.0/10

Synopsis : This book is about a fighter of pancreatic cancer, Randy who is living the remaining of his life. The essence of this book is taken from his last lecture called "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams" which he claims is not about dying as what most people might have thought, instead it's about living. This book has given the readers a new perspective of life from the lens of a person whom was expected to end his life in about 6 months. A lot of the messages in this book are dedicated to the persons he dears the most: Jai, his wife and his three children named Dylan, Logan and Chloe (the only daughter and the youngest too). When he wrote this book, he was 47 years old man with kids of age of 6, 3 and 18 months-old.

Feedback : This is the kinda book I feel myself attached to. A real-life story which can inspire the readers. Basically, I like the simple language used. Upon reading this book, I can say when we know when are we going to die, we know that's not much time left, what matters the most is to make each thing that we do meaningful. Like he said, he was somehow glad that he got cancer because he got a death alarm. Unlike if he was dead because of an accident or heart attack, he would not get a chance to apologize and be grateful to all the people around him. Well, I think that's something to ponder. One point captures me the most is how deep his love to his children. A lot of time, he mentioned about his worry of his children growing up without their dad. Because he will leave them anytime soon, hence there will be not much memories of him remembered by the kids, especially the youngest which was only 18-months old. Therefore, he wrote a lot of letters and filmed as much video as he could with the kids so that they will be able to watch and read the letters when they are big enough to understand. It touches my heart that despite his absence, he still wants his kids to know that they used to have a dad who loved them very deeply.

Downside : Not a highly recommended book if u ask me cause there's no 'wow' factor but I like it anyway. I mean, I'll put a book in my 'highly recommended' list if I got goosebumps when I read it. Maybe because this book has the same emotion and atmosphere throughout.

Sunday, July 3, 2016

After three years celebrating Raya abroad. 
A lot has changed since then. 
I miss everything. 
But I also miss Auckland's weather. 
I actually miss Bersatu. 
Especially the 2014's. 
That's the beginning of almost everything. 
A memory I shall not forget. 
Now it's been two years. 
Seeing the upadates on facebook, how the faces have changed. 
I just miss playing again, 
Just to excrete the extra energy which I have no idea where and how to channel to.