Monday, June 27, 2016

Devastated

I don't understand
I don't usually think too much when I do something
So I can't even justify my actions

What is this?

Sleep Niena sleep!

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Detached

Krik krik
I'm sorry but I don't feel belong anymore
So I might not go
I'm afraid I'll be awakward kuasa 56

Wilting

I'm like a soluble panadol
Reacts very abruptly
And then soothes after a while
The only difference is
I might not be healing nor curing 

To be honest, I feel a little bit dull without kids to play around on a daily basis
Because after three years it has been my routine
Now I'm back to reality

I don't really miss other things I left in Auckland (maybe yet)
But my thought is always for Mia and the twins
Macam ni ke weh perasaan kalau ade anak sendiri? Hhmm

New look

How do you like my new look? 
Not too bad aye? 
Well I'm trying to put on a more girlish pinkish gedikish mode. 

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I'm a family girl. 
I tell everything to my family, particularly my mum and my two older sisters. 
So if you're those close friends of mine, expect your names are mentioned to my family. 
When I tell about you to my family then you are indeed significant in my life. 

Because I just had a conversation with my mum in the car early this morning. 
Well we both are hoping for the best, 
Oh well who aren't? 

Missing daddy. Oh yes, I am a daddy's girl. But my bestfriend is my mum. 

Friday, June 24, 2016

knowing vs knows

There are some people who I tell a lot about myself and as a result, they are knowing me better.
And
There are some people who I tell them most of the things about myself, they know me.
They just know me.
For who I am.
And they know how to handle me.

But those two are different.
I can't lie to myself.

In the end, everything has been written.
You can long,
But you can't guarantee.
And least you can do is,
to learn to accept.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Thank you and goodbye

I'm not good in expressing in words
So please take this post seriously. 
Haha.

Thank you for being a good friendnemy
Thank you for annoying me everyday
Thank you for challenging me all the time
Thank you for hating everything I love
Thank you for listening to all my stupid story everytime (though your response sometimes is not what I wanted. But thank you anyway haha
Thank you for the Gong Cha treat
Thank you for trying to prove me you're a good driver
Thank you for trying to make me a different kinda person (hahaa tak berjaya!)
Thank you for waking me up in the morning
Oh ya, thank you for the proofreading job! 

Aaaaand
The list will go on and on and on and oonn

After all, thank you for 'entertaining' me throughout my life here and being one of those significant others. 

Till then, boii! 
See you when I see you. 

Thursday, June 16, 2016

4 days

Now it's only 4 days left. 
Feeling?
Honestly at this moment neutral lagi. 
But hopefully all the good things await in Malaysia. 
I'm not good in expressing cause I hate cheesy stuffs. 
But those people, I sincerely am happy being around you. 
Thanks for making me who I am,
And accept all my flaws that me myself is trying hard to embrace. 
May Allah protect each and everyone of you. 

Again, million thanks. 

Friday, June 10, 2016

Malay post vs English post

English - usually reflects my instability.
Malay - my happy side most of the time.

Do you notice that?

When i start talking in English, I am really making my points.