Monday, March 31, 2014

History haunts

It happened to me years ago.
I see the pattern this time is quite the same.
And I'm afraid. 
I'm afraid it'll happen again.
I hope it won't.
It happened naturally. 
Please, it was so tiring.

But there are good things beyond it. 
Good as in the blissfulness.

Nobody will ever understand.

Friday, March 28, 2014


They are just so adorable.
And cute.
And innocent
And pretty.
And you name it.

Because I am babysitting now.
So my affection towards babies grows even bigger.
So let's spam their photos hereeeee...............

Thursday, March 27, 2014


Since my schooling days,
I was always being bullied.
And I got used to it.
Or maybe I shouldn't say it 'bully', 
It's just being teased extremely.

Or budak soksek kata kena perangat,
Kawan kawan sini cakap kena bahan. 
Because I'm Niena.
Even my siblings bully me.

Sunday, March 23, 2014


It's complicated.

I'm so nervous.
And I become clumsy.
I look so stupid.
And now I feel hated.
Or am I actually right?

If you can't, please just don't hate me. 

I'm trying hard to break the walls. 

Friday, March 7, 2014

Second year, first semester

Arrived in Auckland about 2 weeks ago. 
And my life here had been so busy and hectic.
Just got a house on the first day of the class.
Right after class, went to take the key from the office, damn hungry.
And just had a chance to move in about an hour later, and the loading and unloading went on and on until midnight.
And it's not over yet. 
Caught red handed by the police because I accidentally took the wrong lane. 
It happened so fast.

Thank you Allah for this.
For everything you give.

And I'm happy. 
Please stay.