Sunday, October 30, 2011

hati

hati.
"dalam diri manusia, ada seketul daging. kalau daging itu baik, maka baiklah seluruh jasad itu."
hati.

well, these few days sangat mencabar, menguji dan membebankan. astaghfirullahalaziim.. stop blaming people around you niena. kembali pada-Nya. mengadulah pada-Nya. kadang kadang kita terlalu rely on kawan kawan sampai kita lupa ada yang Maha Mendengar. ada yang Maha Mengetahui. astaghfirullahalaziim.. :'(

yes, i admit aku sangat suka berkawan. i mean, once i declare we're friends, i really trust on him/her. so, i'll tell every single thing to him/her. i'm not a secretive person. i tried hard to keep something to myself, but i just can't.

but the problem is when you keep talking, you hurt people more. you tell unnecessary things and you talk nonsense. haish. serabut.

for those i ever hurt you, i'm sorry. i didn't meant to.

bye.

Friday, October 28, 2011

revelation

today, i just knew something about myself.
guess what?? actually, i'm a perfectionist? oh gosh, says who? says the personality test result. haha but it was not that surprising. maybe before, i'm just in denial that i'm actually a perfectionist. haha funny at the first place because i always hate this group of people. i mean, i hate a person who is being toooooo particular. but actually, i'm just the same as them. emm maybe not that particular.. :P

#yes, i'm particular about tidiness. 
i hate messy place or person. i hate messy haircut. i hate boys with long hair. i hate people who don't put things at the original place they take. i hate messy closet. i hate messy kitchen. i hate disarranged stuffs. i hate unorganized workings (in math). i hate when i'm using too much liquid paper or cross my answer too much on a paper. so, i will just crumple it and copy everything back. haha believe it or not.. actually I AM a perfectionist. well, it's not something to be proud of. it maybe annoy people sometimes. lalalalaaa~

#yes, i am quite choosy in eating.
i don't eat quite a number of foods. for example, i don't eat cheese. i don't eat 'daging'. except the daging is very nipis and kering. i don't eat ikan pari. i don't eat sambal belaan. i don't eat petai. i don't eat PULUT. any type. i don't eat nenas.. (ouch, saying its name already makes me feel like stabbed.) i don't eat cendol as well. can't accept the raw santan taste.. =.="

banyak lagi kalau nak list. but in conclusion. i see those as both positive and negative. don't having nothing much else to say. byeee~~~

Thursday, October 27, 2011

body language

today is a stressful day... hhmm take a deep breath niena..

body language.
that's the key.
you don't need sounds, you don't need words, you don't need physical conflict. but, it's enough to make your whole day stressful.
hmm whatever!

however, i'm quite happy today. at least BORING day in the hall could make me still smile a bit. :))
seriously, it's B.O.R.I.N.G and to expose myself in front of the public is not something that i like about. seriously i hate being single in front of the public. at least i need a partner and that's better. alone? oh no. i hate when everyone's eyes are on me. i will feel extremely conscious. the way i walk, the way i speak, my facial expression, my gestures, my voice and what not. i conscious on everything. yeah, imam once said to me. "kenapa nak sibuk fikir apa yang orang fikir? x perlu pun." yeah, he's motivating me to be more confident. i take it as a challenge.well, i told him, i'll be confident when i'm a teacher soon.. haha.. what a big vision.

whatever it is, the softskill thing is still not that enjoyable for me. i'm hoping for something more fun tomorrow plzzz.... hhmm but the fact is today is my first day i listen....... okay, forget it :)

haha ok bye.. :)

Monday, October 17, 2011

stress

it's been a long time i haven't cried. and today i cried. it's a way of releasing my sadness + stress. its no good to stress you know. because once you stress, you've caught yourself into troubless... yeah, i mean troubles.
when you're stress, you're/you :
1. fragile
2. easily to get mad to people
3. refuse to join with others. prefer to isolate yourself which is not a good thing (to me).
4. will not talk nicely to people. in other words, you often hurt people 'accidently'.
5. will get hurt back.

in conclusion, don't get stressed. because it makes you even 'stresser' muahaha.. to the person yang get hurt by me, sorry. i didn't mean to. yeah, i admit that i'm wrong. i'm suffering a lot right now.

x semua benda boleh diluahkan. sometimes, it's better to stay quiet and keep it to yourself.
i love you.
bye.

blogging

lately malas nk type yg terlalu peribadi.
takut takut ade orang boleh hidu.
baik simpan dalam hati.
dan teman teman di sekeliling.
benci bila kalah.
tahniah kepada yang menang.
rasa tak macam dulu lagi. kenapa?
so what?
k bai.

Friday, October 14, 2011

entri berunsur ganas (18 SG)




assalamualaikum.

what's up bro. ari ni gua nak cakap something bro. rupa x penting bro, yang penting hati. warna kulit x penting bro, yang penting hati. struktur gigi x penting bro, yang penting hati. ketinggian x penting bro, yang penting hati. kaya x penting bro, yang penting hati. kulit licin ke tak, tak penting bro, yang penting hati. gemuk x penting bro, yang penting hati. saiz kasut x penting bro, yang penting hati.

kesimpulannya, yang fizikal tu semua x penting bro. bila bila boleh lesap bro. yang penting hati mau lawa.
okbye.


Thursday, October 13, 2011

what a day

what a day today.
dibahan sepanjang hari. what a day.
the shoe flings in the air. smpai kena kipas and ceiling. what a day.
my statements being manipulated all the time. what a day.
acting in the class. rasa bodoh. my language is toooooooo bad. hmm what a day.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

panas (belum basi kot tapi)

Isu panas

Isu panas sekarang kt kms. Ye, sangat panas. Dan panas itu makin membahang semenjak hari ni. Ce teka, ce teka! Haha ok, betul!!!

ISU KALEIDOSCOPE

Wow, menarik ni nak dibincangkan.
Haish. Sebenarnya aku ni bukan lagi member KMS VOICE OUT pekebenda tu. Bukan ape, serabut notification belambak sebab benda tu. Muahaha.. pon boleh kan? Tp alkisahnya, sebab isu ni terlalu hangat, outsider macam aku ni pon boleh taw. Sebab baca melalui fb orang lain. Ok, x perlu nak cite pasal aku kan.
Hmmm biasalah, perkara pertama orang akan buat bila dapat Sesuatu ialag menge’chechk’ kesempurnaan sesuatu tu. Adat lah tu. Kalau nak beli barang, mesti nak pastikan berbaloi dengan ape yang kita bayar kan. Yes, it’s TRUE.

BUT, in this kaleidoscope thingy, of course kesempurnaan x kan tercapai. Sebab all the crews bukan orang handalan yang pernah menerbitkan majalah mangga, URTV, ok x best, bukan jugak pernah menerbitkan majalah seventeen, cosmopolitan and whatsoever. Mereka hanyalah PELAJAR KOLEJ MARA SEREMBAN which consist of… ok fine, x nak sebut, nanti racist pulak.

Hmm reading all those. I won’t say who’s correct, and who’s wrong. They’re all have their own definition to their own disappointment. Cuma bila isu payment yang dibangkitkan, aku agak sedih dan terkilan jugak. Yes, memang each of us bayar amount yang sama for that magazine, and yes, memang accidently(maybe ade pihak x boleh terima word ni), gambar a level are coloured. Tapi jangalah bangkitkan isu bayaran. Sebabnya, kalau cenggitu, macam mana pulak dgn the crews. Diorang bayar sama macam kita, tapi kenapa diorang kena buat kerja? Kenapa kita x buat? Memang lah jawapannya sebab diorang yg crew bukan kita, tapi at least, appreciate lah their efforts. Lagi sedih, sebab diorang pon sedih dgn penghasilan magazine tu. They do not wish the magazine to turn that way.

Kalau kita taw cerita sebenar di sebalik penghasilan magazine tu, sadis betul. Penuh liku. Perghh.. haha. Ok fine. No offence here. Jangan nak gado2 lah sebab benda ni. Sedih memang sedih. Terkilan memang terkilan. Tambah tambah bila harapan nak jadi covergirl x tercapai. Aku memang sangat frust. Eh, x de kaitan ek? Ye, x de. ok bye. Assalamualaikum…..

Monday, October 3, 2011

mid sem results

Depressed

Mid sem results are already known.

MATH – 67% - C
LITERATURE – 70% - B
SOCIOLOGY – 56% - D
GP – 58% - D

Not impressive at all. TERUK!!

Total points = 10 points. Sigh. Tapi memang mcm ni pon performance aku sebenarnya. Kalau internal exam selama ni pon memang the highest point I ever achieved was only 10. This time ni kalau x include GP is only 9 points. Teruk gila. Nasb baik GP dah wujud untuk sem ni. So, bolehla cover sikit. Sikit laaaa… yes, sangat sikit. GP aku hanya menyumbang 1 point. Ok la tuu.. bersyukurlaa daripada x menyumbang langsung.

How do I feel right now? Feeling bad. But I know this is the best for me now .. =)

Frustrated.

X tau nak cakap ape. For literature tu sangat bersyukur lah. But for math, sooooooo frustrating. Socio, expected already.. =P haha.. time jawab ari  tu pon memang blur abis.

So these results tell me that I shouldn’t play much. Start struggling. Haiiiyarrk!!

Okbye. Assalamualaikum…

Sunday, October 2, 2011

he's the man

i want somebody like the man in the movie "leap year"
i want somebody like farid kamil in "i'm not single"
i want someone like "jodoh"
fullstop :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

tunggu part 2

x pernah sebenarnya buat post ade part part ni. tapi macam dh jadi trend blogger dh kan.. aku pon nak main jugak. haha.

kadang kadang tak rugi menuggu. bila menuggu tu membuahkan hasil :) Alhamdulillah.
#smile ;)))

tunggu ni kira macam taking a risk la jugak. kena terima segala kemungkinan. tapi janganla tunggu untuk sesuatu yang mustahil. tu bukan tunggu tapi berangan namanya. hyperreality. contohnya kalau aku nak tunggu jadi lebih cantik daripada lisa surihani, memang x la kan.. muahahaaa... (oh terlalu hyperreality)

kesimpulannya, sabar. kerana sabar itu sangat ajaib. jangan cepat melatah. anda pasti berjaya! hiyaarkk!! (bunyi ninja).

assalamualaikum.. =)

tunggu

macam tu lah rasanya menunggu. macam bengong. geram je. ari tu dh pernah hantar. tapi malu, padam balik. tempoh sesuatu penghantaran hanyalah 24 jam. jika tiada respons maka yang akan aku dapat ialah malu sekilo. setiap kali buka, mesti berharap dan setiap kali berharap mesti hancur. tapi masih teruskan.