Saturday, November 27, 2010

literature oh literature

x phm la ngn literature ni.. asal ssh sgt??? arghh tension gler bler fkr sal literature.. trok gler kott aku bwat time exam ari 2.. tkot nye dpt U(ungraded)... oh no!!!!!!!! n aku gak x nk kne academic hearing yg sgt x best 2... oh tidak!! sume ni burdening lah.... hmmm dhla 2 ari lepas spek mata aku jatuh dlm lubang toilet lalau x dpt d'selamatkan lg dh... hoho... so aku pon pegi la T1 n bwat spek br.. seb bek murah je... malang tol... back 2 iterature td,,, aku x phm la cmne nk score literature,.. bla bca esei shafiq( bdk plg pndai class aku), rse cm jauh pnggang dr api.. wooo esei dy sgt best... cmne la dy bole tulis s'best 2.. asal aku nye esei cm bdk tadika je... huhu~ takotla... dhla poem yg kuar 2 poem yg aku x ske.. "meeting at night".. so sgt lah lingkup... aku mmg lgsg, even 1% x expect poem 2 yg akn kluar... dats y la tcer alwez remind us,,, DONT ASSUME.....!!!!! klo x,, ni lah jdnye... adoyaiii.... cmne nk score literature???? its a question and alwez be a question!!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

...derita merindu...

dis song... sounds familiar kn... klo dlu aku dgr lgu nie mmg mleleh la air mata... emmm bkn pe,, sbb frust kn.. lgu nie mmg sj je nk d'cptakan utk aku..(eh boleh pulak).. btw,, itu kisah lme.. tp seyesly.. dats my first time loving sum1.. im not kinda ppl yg sng nk syg owg tw.. hhmmm at first mmg x sgka nk jd cmni tp da jd pon..haha.. btw,, kita lyn jap lgu nie..


Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
pergh... mmg kne sgt lah dgn story aku... aku ni pon.. poyo je.. suke nk mngingat kisah lma yg mnyakitkan... actually aku da ttup story 2 n kunci dy rpt... tp kdg2 ske la gtl nk open blk.. pastu ati sniri lak yg skt... papelah niena..

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

~parents sacrifice~

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples, and took a nap under the shadow. He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by, the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree every day.
One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad.
"Come and play with me", the tree asked the boy.
"I am no longer a kid, I do not play around trees any more" the boy replied.
"I want toys. I need money to buy them."
"Sorry, but I do not have money, but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money."
The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.
One day, the boy who now turned into a man returned and the tree was excited.
"Come and play with me" the tree said.
"I do not have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?"
"Sorry, but I do not have any house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house". So the man cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the man never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.
One hot summer day, the man returned and the tree was delighted.
"Come and play with me!" the tree said.
"I am getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?" said the man.
"Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy."
So the man cut the tree trunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.
Finally, the man returned after many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I do not have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you", the tree said.
"No problem, I do not have any teeth to bite" the man replied.
"No more trunk for you to climb on".
"I am too old for that now" the man said.
"I really cannot give you anything, the only thing left is my dying roots," the tree said with tears.
"I do not need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years," the man replied.
"Good! Old tree roots are the best place to lean on and rest, come sit down with me and rest." The man sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears.








This is a story (Parents Sacrifice for Children) of everyone. The apple tree is like our parents. When we were young, we loved to play with our Mum and Dad. When we grow up, we leave them; only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble.
No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could just to make you happy.
You may think the boy is cruel to the apple tree, but that is how all of us treat our parents. We take them for granted; we don't appreciate all they do for us, until it's too late.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

patience is everything....

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck.
To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint.
The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment.
When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.
When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"
The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about the story the next time u see someone spill milk at a dinner table or hear a baby crying. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.
Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Understand & love.

selayang pandang..

(petikan dari lluvislam)
Setiap pagi. Saat mata mula celik. Hanya senyum terukir. Kadang alpa mengucap hamdalah. Astaghfirullahalazim. Itu aku. Yang selalu lupa dan leka. Bukan semua. Harapnya.

Melihat mereka yang jauh di perantauan, kini sangat tabah menyusuri sebuah perjalanan baru di bumi asing. Mereka yang pernah menjadi sahabat dan akan selalu menjadi teman sepanjang perjalanan ini.
Melihat abang dan kakak yang pernah aku kenal suatu masa dahulu di medan dakwah. Kini sudah punya keluarga, sudah punya kerjaya dan berjaya. Bahagia. Melihat mereka, yang akan melangkah menuju dunia baru. Teruja. Aku mahu jadi seperti mereka. Yang gigih membawa nama Islam. Tidak kira tempat, masa dan waktu. Yang tidak pernah meletakkan definisi 'jemu' dalam ensiklopedia mereka.
Aku kagum dan bangga pada mereka. Sedang aku? Masih merangkak menuju dan mencari tempat ini seharusnya. Menjejak medan di mana harus aku tapaki. Aku punya azam. Yang utuh. Di sini. Dalam lubuk hati yang tidak kelihatan oleh siapa pun.
Dari suatu sudut, aku melihat mereka. Yang dulunya pernah hebat suatu ketika. Bicara tentang Islam dengan penuh gah. Bisa membisukan suara-suara manusia. Memekakkan telinga-telinga umat dengan kalimah Lailahaillallah Muhammadurrasulullah.
Tiba-tiba mereka hilang. Hanya tinggal bayang. Dan debu yang mengekori. Aku hanya mampu memerhati dari kejauhan. Mereka, rupanya lumpuh di pertengahan. Ke mana menghilang? Di mana mencari? Tiadakah jalan untuk ketemu dakwah itu? Perasaan ini, hampa dan sedih. Pada mereka yang dahulunya penuh dengan kobar dan semangat. Kini tidak lagi.
Bagaimana aku nanti? Adakah suatu masa nanti aku akan seperti mereka? Ketakutan pada diri. Lenyap hati, hilang jiwa dan mungkin roh ini sesat untuk dakwah pada Islam. Bagaimana aku seandainya itu yang tertulis dalam kitab takdir diri ini?
Tidak. Aku tidak mahu itu jadi seperti mereka. Aku masih mahu berada di sini. Untuk Islam. Untuk dakwah. Dan untuk ukhuwah.
Ya Rabb, izinkan aku menjauh dari takdir itu. Kerana aku tidak mahu selamanya roh ini tersesat.
Tuhan Yang Maha Mendengar,
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui,
Tegarkan jiwa ini untuk berada pada jalan-Mu untuk selamanya,
Jangan biar diri ini tandus dimamah kefuturan,
Menjauh dari-Mu, meminggir dari-Mu,
Kuatkan hati ini wahai Tuhan,
Kerana tiada siapa tahu kehidupan hamba-Mu ini nanti akhirnya melainkan hanya Engk
au.